8/30 2016 Too Much

My mother always told me being pretty wasn't enough

What she didn't tell me was that being smart and pretty would be TOO MUCH 

Would be interpreted as bitchy, bossy, uncontrollable

She didn't tell me that society was not ready for a whole woman 

there was no caution to accompany her advice 

so here I am 

32 and completely myself 

told all the things I am, I couldn't be

yet here I am in all my glory 

but tremendously lonely 

seems as though there is a point when we trade in our morals for money and i’m beginning to get that 

only I’ve been myself too long to let go of her so easily

so I’m holding on to this dream woman I am so close to I can smell

She is something incredible and I just want to be her shadow